Wednesday, September 03, 2008
The Love.
There is a young handsome sweet man, who is just 4 years older than ruixin. He has black curly and dark charming eyes.
Four years ago, at the age of 22, he was already the world number 1.
He is undoubtly extremely talented, with style, passion and determination. He has always managed to woo ruixin's heart with his unlimited energy on the courts.
ruixin wants him to come back as the champion for the US Open 2008. (He has now advanced to the semi final, after a long fantastic match, against Igor Andreev in New York. )
... and, erm, a terracota tennis player?
by rx. 1:57 PM
Saturday, August 30, 2008
Political correctness.
Unlike the Malaysian national leaders (not monkeys), politicians of many countries often try their best to be politically neutral in the context of racial and gender issues, and the welfare of the disabled. In America, these are rather sensitive issues. The whites do not make fun of the blacks, men do not joke about the women, and common people do not impersonte the disabled.
However, not talking about the issues over the table does not mean that they do not exist. I quite like the way Carolos Mencia, an American comedian joked about the disabled publicly. He justified his act as equality for the disabled, as he has made fun of everything else and did not mean to leave the disabled out of the topics.
by rx. 1:53 PM
Saturday, June 07, 2008
One more year till my graduation. Yet there are still many things that I want to do before getting into the real world:
1. get a tattoo at my lower back.
2. have boy cut hair like i used to.
3. have sex.
4. backpacking with random people around Europe, Latin America, India, Middle East, and China
5. get a Phd.
However, things are bound to the reality. And the reality is, my Metric Spaces exams is on Wedensday.
by rx. 8:17 PM
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
最近和爸爸说话时，发觉到爸爸的声音越来越疲倦。
我突然感到爸爸老了。
爸爸是一个很努力的人，那种默默耕耘，累了或有压力时也不会向别人投诉的那种努力。爸爸有些完美主义，有一些忧郁。在事业上非常有成就，在家却一句话也不说。他能有今天，是自己一点一滴累积起来。爸爸六岁就在夜市场打工挣钱，晚上就在也在夜市场铺地而睡。爸爸是我见过最聪明，最有智慧，最善良，最理性的人。但我十多岁时是一个很蠢很不乖的女儿，老觉得爸爸不关心我们。直到在念 A- Level 的时候，不懂得照顾自己，把身体弄坏了，才知道爸爸有多疼我。那时妹偷偷告诉我，爸爸担心得晚餐时拿着筷子，吃不了饭，眼泪却掉了下来，这么多年来，第一次看到爸爸掉眼泪。
去年在中央银行实习时，爸爸每天都会驾车载我上下班。 有一次他必须把车子留在公司里，所以我们搭地铁回家。马来西亚天气热，地铁里人很多，我开玩笑的对爸爸说：前面那个印度人很臭。 爸爸安静的笑了笑，走到了我的前面，把我和印度人隔开。 虽然只是一个小动作，但让我觉得爸爸很疼我。 那次也是我第一次安静的靠在爸爸的背上，直到回家。
我最开心时不是得了什么奖或干了什么事，而是当妈妈告诉我，爸爸今天在朋友面前说：我女儿怎么怎么了。我最开心时，是爸爸以我为荣的时候，那时我会很自恋的跟妈妈说：哈哈，爸爸最疼我。当大学同学都想尽办法留在英国时，我却想回家陪爸爸妈妈。
妈妈说我的完美主义和忧郁是遗传爸爸。我觉得可能是吧。我就只因为听到爸爸疲倦的声音，在房里哭了一个小时。
by rx. 1:25 PM
Saturday, March 01, 2008
Boy-Girl thing continued.
Illusion.
Your life and his life crossed in that tiny amount of time in the university. And yet you find him witty and clever. You thought you share the common thoughts, and you both fit in well. There were sparks, but at the wrong time, wrong place and he turned his back on you. You couldn't get over him and tried to win him back. But you failed. You tried to keep your irrationality and negative emotions under the carpet, although the closest people knew something went wrong. As time went by, you get your focus back on track and time shows his true self and reveals your true friends that helped you went through this. You realised that everything was just illusion. He turned into a boring person that can't accept others opinion and who never tries to understand how others feel. Gradually, memories turned into dillusions, and you are glad to realise that you have moved on.
by rx. 3:47 PM
Friday, September 07, 2007
The Estacy.
One sleepless night, I wander in the colourful heartless city, losing my head, losing my mind, and I can't find my way home.
by rx. 8:50 AM
Thursday, September 06, 2007
Random.
I have been thinking for the past few days, about what defines happiness for me.
I thought, life would be perfect if I have past-time that makes me happy, if I have people to talk to and listen to, if I have dreams, and if I have someone to love.
Yet, I have not been playing tennis for the past 8 weeks. I couldn't find someone to share my deepest feelings when I needed one. I have dreams, but have been thinking if it is the right path to be taken. I have family that I love with all my life, but I am yet to have one on my own.
And the big question is, I can't strike a balance between them.
p.s: However much I try to figure it out, I still don't earn by thinking and writing about happiness, like he does.
by rx. 12:40 PM